the one degree shift.

your body is the ship, and your life is the journey.

now, i know sometimes you feel lost. i know sometimes you wonder if the waves that beat against your sides will ever release your from their tumultuous path of destruction. i know sometimes you ask yourself if it would be easier to simply let the crashing tides carry you far, far away from here.

i know sometimes you fear that you’ll live forever in this inbetween, this life of solitude on your ship as you ceaselessly grasp for tethers, trying to escape from this world where you feel you cannot be reached, or loved, or known, or saved.

i know sometimes you question if the currents will ever guide you home.

what if i told you that the answer was not in the keeping your eyes locked onto the violent waves of your sea, for you already know the pain they are capable of.

what if the answer was not in learning the damaging nature of your tides any longer, for you have learned all you have to learn from them just by surviving into the present, right here and right now.

what if the answer was simple? what if the answer was clutching your wheel with white knuckles, with the ocean’s cold salt water permeating into your bones, and steering your self, your ship, your body, and your life just one degree?

and what if i told you that after many many thousands of miles, after many many thousands of breaths and days and rising suns, that your ship would be somewhere so vastly far from where you had always expected it to be destined for?

what if it is in this one degree shift, that you can save your own life?

see, our lives, our ships, our bodies and minds and souls, are all exactly where they are, in any given moment. the minute we lie to ourselves and pretend we are somewhere far from where we are is the minute that we are overcome with a storm of darkness, of discord, and of disconnection with our truth.

we must realize that it is in this very moment, no matter what storms plague us, no matter how relentless the barrage of gales may be, no matter how cold and exhausted we undoubtedly are, we still have the courage to shift our ships just one subtle yet profoundly courageous degree.

i have thought long and hard about what this degree of mine will be, and have come to the realization that my degree is in the letting go.

the letting go of the belief that no longer serves me, the belief that keeps me stuck in the who-i-used-to-be rather than the who-i-am-yearning-to-become.

the belief that i deserve to hurt for every second that i am alive; the belief that my life is a worthless mistake that must be compensated for and punished.

so, i grasp my wheel. i turn my eyes from the crashing dark waves that lulled me into hopelessness for too many nights, and change my course.

i leave this belief to rest, and instead i believe i am real, i am a soul filled with wisdom and sacred truth, i am a window into infinite wonder and change, and i do belong. i belong here, alive, free of this old thread of darkness that has stayed woven into my heart for much too long.

and yet even with this shift i am not anywhere yet near calm waters. my ship is still reeling from unrelenting walls of surf, i am still fearful of the waters below. but, i am no longer headed for a continuation of that old darkness, i am setting a new course.

degree by degree, we change our endings. with time and patience and an unending fight, we build our new harbors and tether ourselves and our ships to a life we have never before known.

degree by degree, we leave our past selves behind and embrace the truest selves we can be; the beings we are when we hold both our present and our future selves with the utmost grace, while still carrying with both pain and gratitude the lessons our darkness has bestowed upon us. when we are integrated, when we are whole. whole, just as we have been all along.

so, my dear friends. the time has come. what is the shift you know so wholly in your heart that you need to bring about?

what is the belief that is still stealing away your breath, leaving you incapable of moving forward?

what is the piece of your darkness that you need to relinquish? what is the piece of your darkness to which your soul cries “let go”, “let go”, “let go”?

and how, today, will you begin that shift? how will you being the turning of your ship, your being, and your life, to use this small movement to bring about the beginning of the truest freedom?

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30 thoughts on “the one degree shift.

  1. Beautifully written, i have one major factor that covers all of those questions. I AM SCARED!!! It is a simple thing but a massive thing that i cannot just move on from. How am i going to turn my ship around i have no idea. I just know that it has to be done……….

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    1. I was once told that I had to mourn my mental illness. That I am too used to being “ill.” It became who I thought I was. It tricked me into believing that my “illness” was all I could be. But allowing myself to mourn and grieve, I can let go of my hold on these beliefs.

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    1. So so true. Indeed. The power that our words and thoughts care capable of wielding never fails to amaze me. I almost feel like I have made a new friend no matter how far apart we might be in distance.

      You are so genuine and sweet, thank you so much for all the kindness Birdy. 💜

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  2. Congratulations on being nominated for the “Blogger Appreciation Award.” I selected you for this award because you are amazing and I love your blog and enjoy reading your posts. Your blog is awesome, very insightful, informative, inspirational and very well written. I appreciate you and I appreciate your blog. Thank you for sharing your thoughts, wisdom and yourself with all of us. Here is the link to my “Blogger Appreciation Award” post… https://myloudbipolarwhispers.com/2018/01/30/yay-i-have-been-nominated-for-blogger-appreciation-award/
    Your blog is so awesome that I am sure you have received numerous awards, but I wanted to include you because your blog is absolutely wonderful. I hope you will be able to participate. There is no need to hurry. Just take your time and finish when and if you have time. Thank you very much. Have a happy, healthy and fabulous day. Hugs, Sue

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    1. You are very welcome and are very deserving of this award and many more. I am happy you are happy about the award… Wow. Thank you for such beautiful and kind words about me. Oh my gosh. Your words are amazing and you just made me feel very happy happy happy…. Thank you for your kind words. You have made my day and my week and my month…. Wow! You are awesome. Thank you again for your kind words. I appreciate them greatly. Many blessings and much love, Sue

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  3. Hey Birdy! I hope you’re doing well and smiling brightly.
    I just nominated you for The Mystery Blogger Award because I really love and look up to your blog! It’s truly inspiring.
    I hope you’ll check it out 😊💜

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  4. Good for you!!!
    Letting go really does help…
    For me that degree although it isn’t something I can just change would be believing I don’t have to destroy myself, believing that in an worthy and not guilty just for existing.
    You are a work in progress. What you write is really inspirational. The ocean is an awesome place. Happy exploring!! And guiding others:)

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  5. This is so well spoken, and I definitely relate a lot. It’s really helpful and hopeful ❤ I hope one day I can make that life changing shift. do you have an instagram by the way? I would love to get to know you better

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